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I recently got some new shirts. As I was ironing them for the first time I realised — these shirts (while possibly the nicest and most expensive I've ever owned) were going to require ironing every time I wore them. To which I immediately thought "Well, I guess I won't be wearing them much then." And I …

Disapproval is a subtle one. It's often harder to detect than anger — its shouty, ranty cousin. It slips under our radar, disquised as a "but" at the end of another otherwise loving sentence. "I love my girlfriend but…" "We have a great life but…" or perhaps an "if only": "I'd love her so much more if only…" …

The other night we started drinking at about 9:30pm after a very long day at work. We didn't finish until ridiculously late (well, early). Now, get enough beers in me & I get a bit crazy. A bit "everyone deserves to feel good, so why not compliment them?" crazy. Perhaps unsurprisingly, in a bar situation …

Yesterday I bumped into an ex-girlfriend's mum. She's a lovely woman who I have an enormous amount of respect for. However, their family has a very traditional view of success/failure. So, in terms of what I've been through recently, a lot of stuff came up for me. By the end of our conversation, despite the …

One of the hardest things for me to let go of has been… well… I don't know. A feeling of dread? Ennui? Listlessness? Dissatisfaction? Lack of contentment? A dark heavy cloud hiding at the edge of my awareness? I really don't know. And that, in a nutshell, is exactly the problem. How do you let go of …

Inner peace is very easy; Just stop giving a shit. Well, you know, for crappy versions of 'inner peace.' It's very easy to think we're at peace and have finally accepted something, when really we've accidentally slipped into apathy. You might be peaceful, but you probably won't be happy. All healing, growing or goals we have are …

The bible said "Judge not lest ye be judged" — which is pretty funny considering the whole book is chock full of judgement. Touch a football? check. Get a tattoo? check. Sell your daughter as a sex slave? Oh, no actually, that one's ok. Of course, Jesus also said "forget that old testament, honky, all …

I realised a long time ago the truism that "What annoys me most in others is what annoys me about myself". This is one of the reasons I've come back to live with my folks for a while. I'd got about as far as I easily could peering into my own navel. Much easier to …